I will try to summarize this article tomorrow, but for now, here is a link for anyone needing support and guidance on how to deal with the holiday season which brings us so much pain and anxiety. I am posting this at 5 a.m. But I have not slept at all. Maybe I will get a little rest soon.
A Mother's Grief and Learning to Live Again 
Here I am at 2:30 in the morning. It has been nearly five years….there is little rest for grief. Thank you for the link. Hugs and blessings.